I am afraid,yes I am afraid..That nagging feeling of being
left all alone is still there…that worry clouding the judgements still looms
over by and large!
I still have a long way to go when it comes to trusting my
instincts and acting on it.
I always have been a rebel.All the time being aginst the set
standard norms,ready to defy and break the rules and blunt to an extent of
being rude!
This is not a good sign,being honest doesn’t help.It never
helped.I have few friends,many enemies,worst I am single.
Where are the Men who could be termed as Men! Lol here I
sound sexist.Yes I am! Very much from that school of thought wherein I believe
an ideal man: A man of my dreams should
be the one who wears the pants in the family,takes care of his women and I bask
in his attention and love which would be showered to me and blah blah…blah…I am
a typical woman,I really hate wearing denims and trousers though I do have
curves that could be emphasized more still I am very much much comfortable in
what I am!
Still I am born into an era of peterpan generation wherin
nothing is easy and everything is easy! Contradictory yes very very much…but that’s
the truth!
You sell cheap and you also buy cheap…demand and supply
ratio has just been reversed.The reason I am feeling insecure is that I am in a
limbo…
At this point of time I need an Angel ,perhaps while I am
writing this in blog,hopefully my angel too reads it and Saves me from all the
ongoing chaotic thoughts in my mind…
I strongly feel live every moment,do what you feel like and
listen to your heart but today I am shaken..I am dreading the unforeseen future…….trying
to be what I am not! Just because I am afraid I will die a lonely hag…I refuse
to surrender but then I am getting weak…My heart is screaming out to me stop
before its too Late!
You are a girl who has endured a lot worse than this than
why surrender now! But that sinking feeling ….How do I fight!
That voice of my inner Soul still guides me but yes I have apprehensions......
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