Thursday, May 23, 2013

I couldnt sleep last night!!!

Life is quite unpredictable when it comes to me and Writing gives me a window to express my incoherent thoughts and dilemma that I find myself in!
At times you need to choose,There is always a choice involved which shapes up the path ahead..As I find myself in continous struggle to constantly prove to myself that I too am capable...
But there comes a time when all is lost...each passing moment is nothing but a painful reminder of a Life which could have been mine...Each day another struggle...
Yesterday was one of those days..I felt cheated..I felt as if the world had crashed and The person whom I have started loving had just let me down...
Yes It happens when you Hero Worship someone but then that someone refuses to even acknowledge, it hurts!
Emotions play havoc and that  imbalance occurs...Today is not a weekend but I am sitting alone in my flat not going to work and writing just to vent my feelings..
Writing always gives me strength and provides an escape from the harsh reality..
As I searched his face for some remote support I saw none,he just misunderstood me like the others and passed his judgement...
A numbness that had crept over me as though in preparation for his harsh words yesterday and yes I did lift my eyes to stare him straight in his mocking eyes ....but then tears began to flow not in a healing flood but a wild torrent of despair that had rented my body in two....!!
I couldnt sleep last night!!!!!!!